Dear members of the community,
After reflection, I've had a think and I think it's time that I take responsibility. For my mistakes, that have lead to a lot of problems.
The most recent event where I resigned my rights, came back after 1/2 months and expected to be able to have them back, after I made a big deal about leaving - I've now come to understand is simply not acceptable. I have therefore closed my appeal, with immediate affect. So I can now face the consequences of my actions.
To be completely honest, my behaviour, for sometime hasn't been acceptable. For a long time, I've been overly defensive, accusatory and haven't always had the best interest of my fellow community members to heart and I'm truly sorry for this. Accusing fellow members of conspiracies to "oust me" and acting completely selfishly.
I've lost a lot of friends a long the way, this makes me sad but it's my own fault and I fully accept it's a consequence of my actions. I'm sorry I haven't been the person I should've been and I'm sorry for all of my broken promises and broken apologies.
I think for a while, I've let myself get so carried away by these conspiricies I've created in my head that I've really not become a good example and so I agree, I'm not yet in the right position to be an administrator of the Wiki. I accept this wholeheartedly.
Hopefully, with time and now that I've managed to finally see just how unacceptable I've behaved, I'll be able to be an example of a leader and put myself forward, when it's acceptable to be an administrator again.
I hope you guys don't mind, but I've asked the administration if I could have rollback and image control rights. As most of my edits on the Wiki are based on reverts and image edits (which I can't do neither anymore). I thought, with this, I don't have any leadership roles or leadership responsibilities but instead, I can continue to contribute the way I have done without the authority aspect.
I want to end by saying thank you for reading and I truly, am very sorry for all I've done. I hope in time, I can undo some of the damage I've caused and start to rebuild the relationships I've destroyed.
Added after creation: I also done things behind closed doors to try and build up my own personal gain. Either with rights or getting people "on side". This too is wrong and I've done it an awful lot. Literally less than 10 minuets (both of these things) before I published this blog. (I had started writing it and then done these two wrong things whilst I was typing!) I'm sorry for this too and it's behaviour I really don't want to continue. Hence why I'm owning up to it here and apologising for this serpately.
Thank you all and take care.
Yours,
16:32, April 26, 2020 (UTC)